Finishing Year 9 of Foster Focus brings with it some changes.
How do I start this off? I never once thought I’d start a Year 10 in any employment situation, let alone a self-employment situation. Before the magazine, I wasn’t what you’d call a “stick to it” type. I’ve quit more jobs than most of you have had. It was kind of my thing. I’ve worked since I was about 12, but never with any kind of vigor. Just enough to get by. Then I went ahead and followed through on one of my many brainstorms.
Running Foster Focus has been (Fun fact; my cursor sat on this one spot for about an hour), I guess I’m still not sure how to explain what it has been like to run the nation’s only monthly foster care magazine…let’s start there.
What idiot signs up to produce a monthly magazine by himself?!?! What kind of ego must a person have to think they handle the ins and outs of running a small business, as well as, putting together a good looking, content-rich, magazine month after month? Kid’s heart and mouth are bigger than his brain, that’s for sure.
I’ve done okay. Gotten tougher as the years have gone on. But I’m still here and I’m still fighting as I did all those years ago when it all began. It can wear on me, the stress of missed deadlines, the money of it all, these things can make you feel like there is a weight on your chest. I suppose the ego that is optimistic is the one with a short enough memory to pull this all off. I am nothing, if not optimistic.
I stay positive. It was a heck of a lot easier to do all this a few years ago. Because it is a thrill to do this work, I guess I wasn’t paying attention to what my body was screaming at me. Even the occasional double-issue wouldn’t be enough of a break after around the sixth year. There is an attribute that I have from my time in care that those who haven’t lived it tend to lack. I have the ability to adapt and adjust to any situation.
If your looking for a bright side to time spent in care, that would be it. When magazines were being printed late or sent out behind schedule, I changed print houses. When costs got carried away, I switched to a less frequent print schedule. And now that my health is out of whack, I will have to adapt and adjust again. First thing I will have to tackle is how to knockout great issues while sleeping far more than I have in the past. Seems to be a side effect of the medication I’ve been given. I’m sure I’ll figure it out. Not without a few bumps along the way. And some of those changes I mentioned to start this thing.
The most glaring change will be a changing of the guard at Columnists. For the last few years Chris Zollner has kept us riveted with the tale of Jenna in Diary of a Madman column. I may have named that column a bit prematurely, nonetheless, he delivered quality column month after month. This month the tale of Jenna and the column that encases it come to an end. I’ll miss Mr. Zollner. He was always on time and happy to volunteer his skills to the magazine. I thank him for his time and willingness to share the saga of Jenna with us all.
In his place comes the ever-versatile Dr. Capri Cruz. I’ve known Dr. Cruz for a longtime and she is an impressive force. A former foster kid, a Navy vet and a mental health counselor, she’s the perfect fit for a question and answer column. I’m pretty excited to add her to an already impressive group of Columnists.
I guess I kind of sold this particular column as one with many changes. I guess there are just the two; a new Columnists joins the team as another moves on and my Macgyver-like skills to adapt are put to the test. I’m optimistic as ever going into Year10. It’s who I am.